sucking sucks

haizzzz

so if you're not good at playing a game
what do you do?
you practice
right?

ok

then the game is a team game
so you need a team to play
and then because you suck at the game
the team ends up losing

then the team tells you to leave
so you cannot play
since you cannot play
you cannot practice
since you cannot practice
you end up sucking... more

so who's fault is it that you end up sucking?
actually it's yours since you suck
but who's fault is it you cannot get better?
the team

so all you fucks out there who say someone sucks and not let them do anything or want nothing to do with them
screw you hippies

so if the game ends up with a lot of people who do not know how to play
screw you hippies

and one more thing
screw you hippies

and i dont know why you guys are hippies but...
screw you hippies

PnT = AMaths

except there is no vlee to torture me now...

but the concept is the same
you hate the subject somehow, you dont want to come...
you dont want to know whats happening...
you dont care if you fail...

i should have left when the faci said no sweets in the lab...
now i got no reward for actually being here

although for AMaths i can say it was self-inflicted, the hatred for it
but then for PnT...
THEY made me feel it...

its not i know because of psychology...
common sense...
can see...
can tell...
and i can sense...

heh... aura detection eh?

i trust my gut and i trust my instincts...
and my gut says i wont be happy here...
and i instinctively want to get out of here...

them again

somehow both of them
no longer affect me...

still missing that shiny smiley drug though...

i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it

i fucking hate it

i fucking hate being alone
always alone

i fucking hate the way there is never anyone at home
i hate it that it is always me here alone with nothing to do
i fucking hate the fact that have to fucking do this
i hate the way i am always left here alone
i fucking hate this empty feeling

is it gonna be like in Sec 2 again...
when i was at the peak of my emo-ness...
am i gonna use a paperclip again?
am i gonna carve on the table again?
what about the pencil... oh wait... the pencil was art...
am i gonna draw those stupid pictures again?

NO
I wont...
at this point marf asked me who gave me the smile drug and wan asked me to kill zombie monsters with him
not again...
never again...

and never again
and never again
they gave us 2 shots to the back of the head
and we're all
dead
now
-MCR
I Never Told You What I Do For A Living
(zombie monsters said that)

dang thats emo...
ok i think this will be better

Whoa Oh!
We'll leave the past in the past
Gonna find the future
If misery loves company
Well, so long, you'll miss me when I'm gone
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone
-Simple Plan
When I'm Gone

thats better...
so long emo days
i guess it pays to have kaypo friends huh...
oh... i almost failed my fresh start...
and now to a fresh restart

chill in freezer for a day

haaaaaah.....

i feel so calm now...

it was a good idea to X today
it gave me time to cool down...
organize my thoughts....
clear my brain....
plus, i dont need to get pissed off over nothing...


the feeling still there though...
but i think i should just let it stay...
i think it can be classified as a sad feeling?... maybe.... like longing for something...
.........................but then feeling this feeling makes me...................................
smile.... ^-^

its like just having the feeling tells me something....
like... just the feeling is enough...
a precious feeling i wont want to lose


every friday then...
lets make it a habit...
just go... slack there... find a place to sit and just.... forget...
if it relaxes me... why not right? nothing wrong with wanting to relax right?

although getting the shiny smiley drug will be the best...
i guess i'm doing it in hopes of getting the drug then...

them

haizzzz.....

ore-sama feels so lost and emo now...

I WANT TO SEE HER AGAIN!!!

ore-sama doesnt care if anyone sees this
thats why he blogged about it....

I WANT TO SEE HER REVITALIZING SMILE AGAIN!!!

I WANT TO SING THAT NANA AND ACHIK SONG WITH HER!!!

I WANT TO CHANGE THE LYRICS SO THAT IT CAN FIT US!!!

whoa... i almost wrote something i dont think i want anyone else to see... especially wan...
and that thing is the modified lyrics


i dont care about the fairest princess anymore
i can heck care about my charismatic friend
i wont mind if the haze clouding my mind disappears

I JUST WANT TO SEE MY BELOVED NINJA GIRL AGAIN!!!

if only i had the balls at that time....
if only they didnt already have someone else in mind then...
if only i had my chance...
if only...

haizzz... if only only i can say...
like that helps in any way

and somehow my iTunes is smart and shuffling into emo-ish slow sad songs so far...




and now...
lets go look for that Nana and Achik song...

zzzzzztttttt.... CLEAR!!! KAZAP!

Tifa used Phoenix Down
Cloud has revived



____________^-^---<--shiny smile

Fiq has been revived!!!
No seriously... Ore-sama has been revived by a shiny smile...

And this blog has also been revived after being deleted and in a comatose state for 2 days?.... maybe

YAY FOR PHOENIX DOWNS!!!

oh... good things have been happening today...
this is another one of them

uhhh

so after ore-sama appears after such a loooooooong time...
he disappears again...

zzzzz to ore-sama

ore-sama is bored....

there's nothing to do in a blog except write and write and write....
its not easy for ore-sama to get inspiration on what to write everyday....
no actually ore-sama is lazy to get inspiration...
so ore-sama just waits for it to come

.........oh?

that was weird...
is it just ore-sama or was that a tremor?






oh!
i forgot....
happy kids day you immature brats